Video: Shadow work...

 

I have dealt with both a confrontation with my shadow, as well as possession from a negative entity.  Though I still seek to make sense of how they both influenced me, I can say my shadow was light and impish, and that the entity was pure horror, and couldn't have possibly been something of my silly, cartoonish mind.  As I walk away from the psychological confusion in time, I am sure I will get a clearer picture of what it all (or at least what most of it) meant.  As anyone who follows this blog is well aware, I play with ideas on here until I reach concrete conclusions in my healing and development, and in recent times there have been some breakthroughs.  Don't see this as a teaching blog... see this as a blog of contemplation and self analysis, where I produce writings based on what I discover along the inner journey.  (It's kind of like an online equivalent of "The Red Book" by Dr. Carl G Jung in some ways.)

My traffic numbers tend to be low on here... I am not sure what I am doing wrong, although I refuse to let it bother me.  Perhaps the work is too self indulgent for anyone to care... perhaps it is too "out there".  I would have thought that with "WitchTok" and all that, it may have gotten a bigger following... oh well.  Maybe people just don't like reading things on blogs anymore, and yet the videos aren't going far either.  Doesn't matter to me too much - if it did, I would worry about my ego again.

-Saraƒin

Video: Inner Child...

One of the things I decided in my 30s was to live, in some ways, like a child again, deciding it's what I really want to get out of life.  This does not mean I don't take on my adult responsibilities, or that I lack a decent enough adult life, but it does mean approaching things with the simplicity of a carefree child, not taking on too much to satisfy some lofty idea of what the ego thinks it wants, not piling on top of myself too much responsibility, living simply.  It also means I delight in things like dress-up and cute stuff.  When I was a little girl, I was a major tomboy... now I'm a bit more of a princess who is secretly a queen.

Nothing sums up what happened in my 30s better than this Sarah's Scribbles cartoon (sorry about the low resolution - this is the only image of this particular strip I could find for now):

I really just want to enjoy life while I'm still here.  Children, like cats, will often take delight in an old cardboard box and make a fort out of it, as an example... I want to be like that again, and not give a shit about having it all.  I'm sick of the way the adult world expects me to feel.  

-Saraƒin

Video: Need vs Want...

 

I hope this video doesn't come across as too cocky to those who are struggling - I have known my share of that, and managed to find a way to level things out.  Still, I think there's some good food for thought on how to get there, at least in certain parts of the world.  As expensive as Toronto is, I am thankful to live where there are services available to help someone like me, who had to rebuild her life.  I think the message here is - don't push anything too much, let things manifest, and watch for signs.  It's just harder now than ever before.  I acknowledge my privilege and that it's not easy for everyone... it wasn't easy for me, but it's stable now.

The Marian Shrine of Gratitude was as beautiful as always, but it was so damn hot yesterday that we had to leave within the hour to get someplace with air conditioning.  I know that it will be a site I visit again and again, on my own or with friends.

-Saraƒin

Video: Dos and don'ts of Third Eye opening...

 

Third Eye complications are part of what happened to me, and I think this was caused by a combo of using THC coupled with the presence of a malevolent spirit.  You want to approach this kind of thing with caution, and be patient, but if you do it right, it's worth it.

Tomorrow I head to the Marian Shrine of Gratitude again with friends - looking forward to it!

-Saraƒin

Video: Reincarnation...

Whoops - this came out backwards!  I am still getting used to the settings on my new iMac.  This computer is so slick it can do everything but wipe my ass.  I didn't realize I was buying a model with less storage space than my last iMac, but two external hard drives solves that issue.  Other than that annoyance this machine is a thing of beauty.  (It's a green Apple so I named her "Granny Smith".)

My energy body feels glorious these days... and the Cymbalta is probably helping a little bit, too.  My GP thinks I can get away with only 30 mg, even though the standard dose is 60 mg.  I don't think I will need it for much longer than a modest period of time, just until things make more sense for me, as I get on top of my health in other ways.

-Saraƒin

Video: Karma...

 

This one came out a bit intense and funny, but is still one of my finer videos.  I feel like, yet again, there has been some improvement in the quality of my channeling.  I'm finding what Spirit says through me to be all the more interesting with time.

I had a chemistry faux pas in my bathroom yesterday - I forgot that I had poured bleach into the toilet, then mixed in toilet bowl cleaner!  I smelt a rising gas, cleared out and turned on the bathroom fan, leaving my apartment.  I found out from Poison Control that I had created chlorine gas!  I had to wait a good couple of hours before returning to my unit.  I wouldn't have mixed these together if I had remembered the bleach was in there, I didn't know that's what happens but I would have assumed it's a bad idea.  I'll never make that mistake again!

-Saraƒin

Casting a magick sphere: A ritual I designed...

As I mentioned recently, I have been experimenting with casting magick circles, invoking the four directions using a basic Wiccan ritual.  But in some indigenous teachings, there is an emphasis on seven directions, which includes Zenith (Above), Nadir (Below), and the Centre, as well as the four cardinal directions.  I wondered if it was possible to cast a magickal sphere, if I could figure out how to summon the other three.

There are 4 archangels affiliated with the four cardinal directions, they are:

North = Uriel

South = Michael

East = Raphael

West = Gabriel

So, what angels are linked to the other three?  I haven't had much luck with the web figuring this out, so I considered what I know of Kabbalah, and thought Metatron, who is affiliated with Keter, works for Zenith, and Sandalphon would be suitable for Nadir (thinking of Malkuth).  As for Centre, I think Shekinah makes sense, Shekinah being Yahweh's consort on Earth.

Once again, that's:

Zenith = Metatron

Nadir = Sandalphon

Centre = Shekinah

So I played around with a ritual and tried invoking this as a magickal sphere, and felt... something.  Perhaps I did create a sphere of power?

Here's the full ritual, if you want to try it - I took the Wiccan circle casting ritual and expanded on it, with some edits:

1 - Stand eastward with your wand extended, breathe deeply 3 times, say:

"Hail to the East, hail to archangel Raphael, I call you forward to witness and protect me in this rite."

2 - Turn southward, say:

"Hail to the South, hail to archangel Michael, I call you forward to witness and protect me in this rite."

3 - Turn to the west, say:

"Hail to the West, hail to archangel Gabriel, I call you forward to witness and protect me in this rite."

4 - Turn to the north, say:

"Hail to the North, hail to archangel Uriel, I call you forward to witness and protect me in this rite."

5 - Still facing north, point your wand skyward, say:

"Hail to Zenith, hail to archangel Metatron, I call you forward to witness and protect me in this rite."

6 - Point your wand to the ground, say:

"Hail to Nadir, hail to archangel Sandalphon, I call you forward to witness and protect me in this rite."

7 - Point your wand towards your heart, say:

"Hail to the Centre, hail to Shekinah, I call you forward to witness and protect me in this rite."

8 - Hold wand above head, say:

"I summon the Infinite, I conceive this sphere as a place of contemplation and protection, blessed by the sacred masculine and the sacred feminine... so mote it be!"

Once any ritual work is completed, here's how you'd close the sphere:

9 - Standing northward, point your wand towards your heart, and say:

"I give my thanks to the Centre, to Shekinah, take with you my blessings.  Hail and farewell!"

10 - Point your wand towards the ground, say:

"I give my thanks to Nadir, to archangel Sandalphon, take with you my blessings.  Hail and farewell!"

11 - Point your wand skyward, say:

"I give my thanks to Zenith, to archangel Metatron, take with you my blessings.  Hail and farewell!"

12 - Still standing northward, point your wand out from you, say:

"I give my thanks to the North, to archangel Uriel, take with you my blessings.  Hail and farewell!"

13 - Turn to the west, say:

"I give my thanks to the West, to archangel Gabriel, take with you my blessings.  Hail and farewell!"

14 - Turn to the south, say:

"I give my thanks to the South, to archangel Michael, take with you my blessings.  Hail and farewell!"

15 - Turn to the east, say:

"I give my thanks to the East, to archangel Raphael, take with you my blessings.  Hail and farewell!"

16 - Raise your wand above your head, say:

"I dismiss the Infinite and give my thanks, I undo this sphere and leave this place as it was before."

So, sinners - if any of you are into magick, I'd love to hear how this worked out for you.  Leave a comment if you're into magick, let me know what you think!

-Saraƒin

UPDATE: I edited this a little - considering what lies beyond human understanding, I decided to add an invocation of the Infinite when conceiving of the magickal sphere.  When I experimented, the power I felt was more interesting.  I have to add this to my spell book!