This is a piece that I started last night, finished today, and might touch up a bit later. As you probably guessed, this is a Jesus themed painting - I like doing religious surrealism and pop surrealism, psychedelic lines seem to feature a lot in my pieces. Acrylic on canvas board, with black and gold pen.
Since I don't feel as driven by art as I once did, when I do feel the muse kick up, I try to follow through and make something. I fell out of love with the idea of being a commercial artist, hating the industry, and will now only paint for enjoyment (usually). I don't mind the idea of being an artist with a cult following, but in the meantime I don't feel like making a business out of my art... I can't think that way for now.
New prayers that might have helped, in the long term: though I have incrementally made things better with time, I wondered what it all meant. I shrugged one day, recently, and prayed to Christ that I get a job as a working "shaman". (I know that word comes with negative connotations, but not having officially come from a tradition, I don't know what else I should use - I know an Algonquin man who self identifies as a shaman, and he is the real deal, able to go into trance journeys at will, without psychoactives, and has done marvelous journeys for me, so if he's calling himself that, I might as well too.). After praying this, I got a sense the Spirit is going to shape me to be something over the next few months, so we shall see. White medicine people that are legit do exist, but there are too many plastic shamans out there making the real ones look bad. Bottom line: if you didn't get sick because of the spirit world and cure yourself to find your power, you are NOT a real shaman, you are perhaps a healer or a shamanic practitioner. There are degrees.
I am still of the opinion that part of my journey (a big part) was about refinement, finding my strength, and becoming a talent with spirituality... maybe this is my call as a job. I will wait for the world to show me doorways... it makes sense in this case, if it is a call. I believe that even big cities in the west need doctors of the soul, perhaps in some ways they are starving for them.
-Saraƒin
PS: Also showing off my new tarot card earrings - from Spencer's!