Thursday, 17 September 2026

"Catholicpalooza" has been very successful!


Wow - I am touched!

I have thus far sold 8 paintings and several comics at "Catholicpalooza".  Very good timing, because money was slightly tight and I had to dip into my TFSA to pad my chequing account.  I'm pretty good at mostly putting money into it and not taking out too much, but once in a while, well... that's what it's there for.

So far, I've sold "Lolita Goddess", "Heartbreak Chair", "Vatican 7", "St. Dymphna, Release Us", three smaller unframed paintings that were priced low, and today, "The Little Flower".  The gallery will remain open from 1 - 6 pm for the next three days, the show closing on Sunday after 6 pm.

This was definitely worth all the prepping, many came out for the opening reception, and there was only a tiny bit of misinterpretation of the tone from some Christians.  I think people see an alt scene white lady in a veil and assume this is some silly tropey thing about mocking religion, but it's really just edgy Catholic themed art, with pieces that range from irony to commentary, homage, and parody of blasphemy.  The "Vatican 7" pieces might be a bit naughty, but I mean no offence with them, they are just rather silly.  Mostly, I have been well received - I had to explain my Anglo-Catholic-ness for some to get me a bit better.

After a year as annoying as 2026 has been (the roof has still not been repaired, sigh) it's nice that at least with art, it has been quite successful, because 2025 was kind of a disappointment.

I am not sure what my next show will be, but it might be "A Nightmare on Roncesvalles 5" at Northern Contemporary.

-Saraƒin

Monday, 14 September 2026

"Catholicpalooza" opens tomorrow night!

All ready!

Again, this is my very first one person show, and my first time at The Show Gallery.  A very close friend of mine was extremely helpful in getting my art and I there, helping to set everything up with myself and the curator, later driving me to the LCBO for wine and Dollarama for some extra snacks and beverages.

I have no idea what the turn out is going to be, but I have decided that most days, until closing, I will be sitting in the gallery between the hours of 1:00 and 6:00 pm.  Tomorrow I might arrive around 2:00 PM and stay until 9:30 or 10:00 PM because of the opening reception.

I just found out that Sister Irene O'Connor's incredibly groovy Psychedelic Catholic Folk album, "Fire of God's Love" is on Spotify, so along with some other musical choices, I will be playing that album as background music to give it an authentic Catholic flavour.

See you tomorrow, if you are in the Toronto area and plan on coming!

-Saraƒin

Sunday, 13 September 2026

RIP, latex nun habit...

 Well, it looks like the original gangsta Sister Penance latex nun habit has finally worn out to the point where it's unwearable.  Today, I took it off the plastic hanger, wrapped it up in tissue paper, and stuffed it in a reusable bag - I am not sure if I am going to throw it out, it might be salvageable with repairs, used for something else, or just given away to someone who wants it... not sure.  But it's definitely, in this state, not fit for any art opening.  The veil is still wearable, but not the dress.  I did get almost a decade out of it... latex is not the most durable material.  It was purchased as a joke for this blog, and worn out and about periodically for art shows, clubbing, an LGBTQ+ Pride march, and a Hallowe'en street party.

I guess people wonder sometimes why I chose to name the blog "The Wayward Nun".  Well, it's an ironic nod to nunsploitation cinema - a kind of a campy homage to a truly tasteless genre that I have been known to throw on and laugh at with my indie scene friends.  But it's also me as a dark clown, ridiculing the notion that I ever was what law and mental health might have wanted to see in me with certain allegations of promiscuous intentions (as if to say: "So, you think I'm a tart, do you?  Well, I can have fun with that idea"), it was to mock all the sleazy, predatory men who kept harming me throughout my life when they thought they could demand something from me, and it was, of course, an homage to the warrior nun trope of sexy demon slaying sisters, with all the madness I have had to endure because of occult forces that the Toronto area mental health care system refused to acknowledge as legitimate.  Not all clowns wear red noses... I decided I would wear this instead.

I doubt I will buy another latex nun habit - this material is expensive, tedious to take care of, and God knows the kind of raw audience I might have drawn without knowing it.  I might, however, still render some "Vatican 7" silliness from time to time.

Tomorrow, I set up "Catholicpalooza" at The Show Gallery - pics to come!

-Saraƒin

Sunday, 6 September 2026

Tips from the housing project: Making the best of low income living...

I may have touched on this before, I certainly have described tips for mental health and even folk magick, but here I go with some pointers that have kept me well and out of debt while being in a low income living situation.  These might not be possible for every reader of this article, some might have challenges or obligations that make things that much harder for them than for me, but here's my advice coming out of my own set of problems, which were, in their own way, a special level of hell:

- Hunt for subsidy.  If you are not already on a waiting list for a subsidized apartment, get on one immediately, because these lists are only getting longer while the economy gets shittier.  If/when your name comes up, try to get a building that takes on mixed tenancy, meaning both subsidized and market rent tenants share the same building.  I find that buildings I have lived in with subsidized only units tend not to be maintained as well, so it's just my recommendation.  If you are in Toronto and are eligible, look into getting a subsidized Presto card for transit, and subsidized internet with services like Rogers Connected for Success.  If you want a landline phone, try something like a Magic Jack (Voice over Internet Protocol = VoIP).  My Magic Jack landline has a renewal fee once a year of about the cost of one month of a cheap phone plan (maybe $35)... other than that, there are no fees.  You would just have to purchase the device that works with your landline when you sign up for it.

- Get into thrifting!  You can have a lot of fun with this, many do, but the trick is to do it all the time.  Only buy what you really want or what you really need, know when to draw the line for both your wallet and to avoid hoarding.  Know when to trade in old goods so that you don't take on too much stuff.  Hunt for sales racks in other stores, learn to admire what you encounter in the store when you see it without necessarily buying it, unless it's within your budget and you simply "have" to own it.  Try to curb overconsumption by looking into buying mostly practical or consumable goods, buy mainly for need, not want.  Sell used items through social media (I don't tend to do this, but I do sell used clothing in consignment stores sometimes).

- Keep your dwelling clean... I am getting better with this!  A clean unit keeps the pests away, but it's also necessary for overall hygiene and good mental health.  Purchase cleaning supplies at dollar stores, along with things like spices and condiments.  Cook as much as you can, don't rely too heavily on takeout... again, I am trying to hone my cooking skills only now.  Be on top of all problems in your unit as soon as they happen to avoid a mountain of trouble later.  Unfortunately for me, my unit has been like a game of Whack-a-mole as of late for problems, but this shit still needs to get tackled if I want any stability in the home at all.

- Take on cheap / free hobbies.  I often do karaoke at bars, there is no cover, you might just get a drink or two, even if it's a mineral water.  I do go clubbing a couple of times a month, which often means paying cover, but I budget what I can afford and make sure to set limits as to how much I will spend in an evening.  Taking long strolls throughout the city or in nature is good exercise and allows you to take in the sights around you, helping you to appreciate things more than say, just sitting around and watching television.  Speaking of which, try not to have too many bills you need to pay by the end of the month.  My treat, as an audiophile, is subscribing to Spotify, I don't get Netflix or any other streaming service or cable because I am not a big cinema person.  I use Tubi (it's free, it just has ads) or watch an old DVD when I want to see a film, but I am not much of a screen gazer.

- If you are the spiritual sort, during your spare time, try to knuckle down and obsess about your spirituality, focus on personal refinement as a goal.  Collect little things, make shrines, devote as much time as is available to whatever discipline you wish to take on.  Spirituality can be very inexpensive, you don't need to buy a bunch of fancy altar supplies.  Do this well, make sense to the world around you, and Heaven might respond to your needs.

- To the Canadians: if you haven't already, start a TFSA (Tax Free Savings Account).  If you can, try making sure that you have an automatic lump sum that goes into it by the end of the month, or incrementally week by week, to build a nest egg.  Start small, see if that works out, then tighten the belt a notch every so often until you feel things through and get the sense of what you can manage.  Me, I started with $50 a month, I now find that I am fine putting away $200 monthly.  I also began investing with GICs (Guaranteed Investment Certificates).  Make it a goal to always pay off your credit card bill by payday every month, and put away any extra money from your checking and savings into the TFSA and GICs whenever it lands in your lap.  If you are on ODSP, you should consider starting an RDSP (Registered Disability Savings Plan) and investing in that once your TFSA gets close to $40,000, because beyond that, it's considered an asset, while an RDSP is not, because it's meant for retirement.  This allows you to build more money without being scolded.

- If you are artistic, try to admire the bohemian approach to life, focusing on aesthetics and creativity to make your dwelling a more endearing place to rest your head.  Get into the local independent art scene, zine making groups, poetry slams.  Again, I recommend thrifting for aesthetics, so keep your eyes peeled.  Develop a sense of style with your appearance - style is not only fun, it presents an interesting aesthetic to the world around you.  When I dress up every day, I am not only empowering myself as an artist, I am adding to the aesthetic of the city, and am often greeted with smiles and compliments from others who like the fun I put into my wardrobe.  Thrifting and sales racks are your friends... again, try to buy only what you really want.

- Learn to DIY (Do-It-Yourself) more, especially for fixing things, and certain levels of personal grooming / pampering.  I have mentioned I cover my hair to reduce the number of trips to the salon, I pluck my own eyebrows, and unless offered as a gift, I don't do manicures or pedicures, I simply moisturize and exfoliate at home, keep my nails trim, and sometimes paint them.  Though I like the look of acrylic nails, I find them too fussy to deal with, and the minute I go to do chores like changing the bedding, they tend to pop off, so unless I want them for a special occasion, I usually just get out the polish and paint my trimmed nails from time to time.  Not to say you should never spoil yourself, but in my case, I am trying to watch expenses, so corners must be cut somehow... just my choice.

- A philosophy I took on for living in my demographic is to admire what being a Canadian provides compared to other parts of the world, as much as we Canucks still love to complain about things (hey, times are tough).  Be not like the grasshopper, who is irresponsible and doesn't commit to what is needed to face the winter season.  If you are disabled, it may not be possible to be like the diligent, hard working ant either.  I recommend being like the bee, who obsesses about every task they must perform, and ultimately makes sense to the community.  

It is possible to live well in Toronto in a low income situation as long as certain needs are met, number one is having access to subsidized housing.  It does mean being extremely frugal and constantly checking your banking to be on top of how well your money is doing, you might want to consider food banks for a few extra items (I'm doing this myself), and you might not be able to take as many trips as you would want.  My spirituality and my friendships are the true wealth in my life, I'm not even in love with money anymore, I just know to be wise with it, appreciating what it provides.

I must confess that deep down, the Taurus in me would still prefer living the lifestyle of someone with much more than this, but those are some of my tips for how to make the best of things, at least as a working ODSP recipient.

-Saraƒin

Friday, 4 September 2026

"Catholicpalooza" poster...


My friend David (fellow comic jammer and brilliant illustrator) stepped up to draft this flyer for my next art show, because I currently don't have any photo editing software, and haven't used any since my last computer.  Turns out I can only start welcoming visitors to the gallery on Tuesday the 15th, because Monday the 14th is the day of setting things up.

I still have some things to do, but am well underway, most preparation is complete.  Some paintings need wires put on, one needs touch-ups, and I have to run to Staples to print the labels for the pieces and the artist bio, but I should be ready in good time.

The pieces going in and their prices are as follows:

• "St. Dymphna, Release Us" = $230.00

• "Lolita Goddess" = $200.00

• "Cherub" = $200.00

• "Excess, The Mother of Harlots" = $300.00

• "The Devil" = $220.00

• "Heartbreak Chair" = $200.00

• "St. Sebastian" = $200.00

• "Vatican 7" = $100.00

• "God Save The Queen" = $300.00

• "The Maid of Orleans" = $200.00

• "The Little Flower" = $150.00

• "Wrath of the Mother" = $150.00

• "Our Lady of Guadalupe" = $200.00

• "St. Lucy of Syracuse" = $250.00

• "Church Window" = $400.00

• "St. Dwight" = Not For Sale

• "St. Elizabeth of the Mad" = Not For Sale

Again, please try to have exact cash, I will have a bit of float money, but I can also, as I've said, do eTransfer.  I have also decided that some extra paintings that are in theme, including "Vatican 7" pinups on canvas board, will be sold cheap for $50.00 each, but they aren't framed or with a wire.

Here is my writeup for the event:

“Catholicpalooza” is Saraƒin’s first independent show, a collection of Catholic inspired artwork from recent years.  Though baptized Anglican, Saraƒin has Roman Catholic heritage on her mother’s side, and there is a strong Anglo-Catholic influence to her spirituality as a mystic.  Saraƒin’s religious art often features a touch of whimsy that looks borderline blasphemous, but it’s a parody of blasphemy that comically attempts to deliver a sincere mystical message in a troubled world that has forgotten about the soul.

A lovely little thing happened while I was in line for the food bank at my building a week and a half ago.  I channeled that I was about to receive a blessing from St. Dymphna, then a butterfly flew over to me, landing on me twice... a symbol of transformation, according to some.  Interesting that I would mention not having any mystical ties to this saint, only to experience that!

-Saraƒin 

Wednesday, 26 August 2026

"Catholicpalooza"...

I'm having my first independent art show in September!  Opening reception will be on Tuesday, September 15th at 6 pm at The Show Gallery (978 Queen St West, in Toronto), right across from the CAMH campus.

The name of the show is "Catholicpalooza", a collection of my more Catholic inspired pieces.  Art will be priced lower than average for this show, so if you want to buy a piece of art, please try to bring exact change (prices range from between $100.00 and $400.00, depending on the piece - I will have a bit of float money), but know that I also will take eTransfer.  I will also be selling a handful of back issues of Asylum Squad comics.  Sadly, I am virtually out of (Complete!) collection copies of "The Jung Ones", but I still have plenty of copies of "The (Complete!) Monster Hospital" and "In Solidarity" for sale.  The curator wants me to sit in the gallery most days, I will try to be at the gallery often, if anyone wants to chat.

There is a lot of prep work to do, I am getting on it right now.  I have selected 17 pieces to go into "Catholicpalooza".

More to come as this show draws near!

-Saraƒin



Wednesday, 19 August 2026

Shrink rant...

I had taken it down a while ago because I felt vulnerable leaving it up, but I had done a psychiatrist call out post about several bad shrinks I had.  Because I am very afraid of psychiatry's power over my life, I chose to remove it.  But now that I'm beyond that world, I feel like talking about some things again:

I am now so afraid of psychiatrists because of what I sense is wrong with my file that the idea of working with one again sends chills up my spine, and passing by the CAMH buildings on the streetcar fills me with horror.  The rogue psychiatrist that I knew who agreed I was experiencing spiritual emergency was the exception, but in the end, I didn't even need a psychiatrist at all.

One doctor I brought up before was Dr. Langley.  I sensed a falseness to this man that I can't quite describe, the kind of feeling you might get when dealing with someone trying to sell you an Apple product, or something else where they're just not exactly being forthcoming with you.  This short in stature Neil Tennant lookalike contestant potential and former professional trombonist gave me the sense that he wasn't paying attention to a single thing I had to say for myself.  At one point, when I made an argument for spiritual emergency, his response was: "if that's what you want to call it in this office, I am willing to call it that" - erm, big deal, because if the file remains the same, it doesn't mean shit, and I don't care.  I am not sure what he wrote down about me, but I suspect it might have been unpleasant.  It's bizarre how little he cared for the patient's opinion, while still remaining so "nice".  When I proposed the kundalini as an example of part of what my true condition was, in all his psychiatric whiteness, he dismissed these mere brown ideas as unscientific, which would sound ludicrous to several other groups that I could name.  I'm also unsure if his lack of knowledge of the existence of the dimethyltrytamine molecule was sincere, I imagine it was a lie fabricated to deflect my argument.  Being a doctor I found it surprising coming from him.  I have no idea who he was, but to me, he was one of the bigger fakes, as pleasant as he was.  He's what's wrong with the "nice guy shrink".  Others have been bad to me as well, but Dr. Langley for sure should be called out again, because this man won an award for - get this - "compassion", so I'm suggesting that it's kind of absurd, based on my experiences with him.

I have decided I can't possibly trust a psychiatrist ever again unless they are particularly brilliant, self aware (and I can tell when they are because I can read eyes), a wounded healer of sorts, and willing to take down the man to protect or help a patient.  I am also not sure about baby shrinks (younger doctors), because I feel it takes a ripened mind to fulfill this role well.  What I liked about my Jungian analyst was that he was the real deal, and would even drop everything and take an emergency call if I was in crisis.  If wisdom is not involved in the practice of psychiatry, terrible things can happen to a file, and thus a life.  My life is an example of this.

Now that I am free of Latuda and away from the system and all its abuses, I feel relieved that I have accomplished this, despite what others thought was possible, and I am never looking back again.

-Saraƒin