Leaving the Mushroom Kingdom...

I feel like I have completed my usage of mushrooms for the time being - I consumed most of the 7G bag over the course of two weeks.  There's still a bit left, but I got a strong sense I had gotten what I needed out of them.  August was just a really sad month for me, I am sorry I mused about suicide again on here, it's something I struggle with, feeling odd about life, what it's been, the uncertainty of my career, and the stresses of low income.  The mushrooms helped lift a funk of sorrow that was affecting me, and I feel my mind shifted to be a bit stronger.  Never did I go higher than just over a gram, and I felt that half a gram even was enough.  This seems to be a medicine I am sensitive to, and I don't even like the psilocybin experience, but the results were worth it.  I am still not smoking marijuana anymore, except for that one time in August where I grabbed some CBD, when I was dealing with the roaches.  I don't think I will be doing it again, I don't feel much from CBD, and I just don't find THC therapeutic at this point, although it was helping for a time, at least with lifestyle and getting back into art.

I know I could really use a vacation, but I'm trying to pad my TFSA for a while, to build up a nest egg, so I am only going to travel if a cheap opportunity comes my way.  It would certainly be very good for me, though - the monotony of my situation is getting to me, and I could stand to change my location, even if just for one week.

October looks to be a fun month ahead - with things I'm planning, it usually is.  We have plans for several parties, outings to pop up Hallowe'en bars, gallery shows, and so on.  November is often a drag for me, but October is one of my favourite months, if only it were warmer!  My Santa Muerte costume is ready, I just need to try it all on to be sure - easiest costume I have done in a while.

The omnibus remains an ongoing project, and I can't see it coming out this year, but it's still underway.  I am running low on copies of "Asylum Squad: (The Complete!) Jung Ones"... not sure if I'll reprint those, or just do the omnibus.

-Saraƒin

New piece: "Hecate"...

 

Here's my other entry for the witch themed art show coming up in October.  I'm ok with it, but I need to learn to slow down when I paint.  Being a propmaker for years meant I learned to paint fast for deadlines.  I am also super neurotic, so maybe that's another reason I rush to finish pieces.  But I like the psychedelic background, the colours, and the line work.  12 x 12", acrylics and paint pens on canvas - I might sell this for $200.00.  (There's just a little bit more line work to do on the sides.)

There is also another art show I submitted to, later in October - it's Hallowe'en themed, I submitted Medusa, here's hoping I get in!

Magic mushrooms are really helping, BTW - I have been working away at that 7G bag incrementally, and already I feel something cleaner in the mind.  Thank God for Shroomyz - now it's easy to get this medicine.

-Saraƒin

A return to the Mushroom Kingdom...

After a rather rough August, I decided to take the advice of something I felt called to do by my guides, and once again I looked into psilocybin mushrooms.  This was something I was trying to avoid, out of caution, but because in other ways I am feeling much more grounded as a subconscious, I thought I could handle them again, if I did a low dose.

Mushroom shops have popped up around the GTA, and there is one right around the corner from me.  I bought 7G of Mexican Cubensis, and decided on just under 1G for my first trip.  The results were a mild hallucinogenic response, followed by feelings of euphoria, as though something in the mind was getting clearer.  The next day, I did just over 1G, and felt a slightly more powerful reaction, where I bawled my eyes out when I felt God come through and express great love for me.

I have decided that the next time I do more will be in about a week, just to allow my system to process the medicine, but it did seem worth it.  The man at the Shroomyz store recommended this, for spacing out the trips, just to be safe.  I can't lie down when I do mushrooms, I am realizing this - it's as though I retreat into the mind, and can get very anxious.  So, I pace, which keeps everything grounded for me.  The slightly higher dose seemed to bring about finer results, so I think my new normal with mushrooms will be to do just under a gram and a half.  (I don't think microdosing was effective for my needs.)

I am a little bit sick right now - masking up, I don't know if it's COVID, could not track down a testing kit to find out, so I'm just laying low and not going out with friends.  I already feel a bit better, I don't expect it to last.

-Saraƒin