Also recently I began getting a yoni, which I deduced represents the Goddess, or Sacred Feminine power. Channel is telling me that I have reached a level through working with the Virgin Mary and the Goddess where the Sacred Feminine is firmly established in me, and so perceiving the Sacred Masculine will feel easier on the psyche. Looks like initiation time is winding down, and I am grounding, as I continue to heal my idiosyncratic neurology with CBD and practice.
Speaking of CBD, I am looking into a medical marijuana prescription now, though a clinic. If approved, it would make it more affordable and I would likely get finer grade stuff. Again, not looking to get high, no THC please, just healing. I can see how it has helped and so even if this isn't approved, I will likely keep using CBD for the next little while, but my psychiatrist thinks it's likely to go through. I am getting a vape from my Mom soon so I will make the switch from smoking to vaping and give my poor lungs a break, though they're handling things well. The brain is definitely feeling quite happy, compared to what it felt before.
Aw, man - I caved and watched "The Craft" again last night. Not gonna lie, that little piece of 90s teen fluff is so watchable that it's probably my favourite movie of all time now. I want to say that a Terry Gilliam movie would be my fave, but no... fuck having finer taste. I can't stop putting on "The Craft" every few months and enjoying it all over again. Fairuza Balk gives me a she-boner, even though I don't find girls amorously interesting... she's just so fucking cool as Nancy Downs. Love her!