Friday, 24 July 2020
CBD updates and phenomena...
Something else happening - I am having phenomena where it seems like I am talking to someone, but I am not sure how real it is. When it comes to me, I engage it, and usually I get a response. It brings me comfort to think it could be real, I take on the mindset of experimenting and treating things as though they are real, to see them through, like a role in a game. I feel it is much better than ignoring them completely, which left me stuck in the past, when I was ignoring the likelihood that my demon was real. I wonder what Dr. Jung would think of all this? He'd either think I'm a wise fool or a mind lost in the unconscious. At least I can balance my life to engage this at will. I lead a simpler life now, but it isn't in turmoil. I can still do my job, see friends, take care of things, be on top of bills. Metatron, I believe, helped me to balance the Western way with this stuff.
I hope that once I am healed, I can know exactly how many gods are involved with all of this - it's kind of hard to tell. I have learned to base understanding on results, not phenomena. Meanwhile, Vishnu/Krishna's forehead marking keeps coming through spirit drawings, so once again I continue to pray to him. If I am not meant to be Roman Catholic, perhaps I am only religious in that I devote my time and energy to Divinity in a way that borders on being religious, because I am immersed in this almost constantly. Catholics, I doubt, would like a churchgoer who prays to many gods. Do I even need an official path? Spirit is crafting one for me, I don't feel any group is going to understand that right now. Sometimes I think I'm really just meant to be Christian (and only Christian) with interesting experiences, but then something always makes me reconsider things again.