Tuesday, 19 May 2020
Working more with the saints...
Saints are helpful because they are closer to humanity, and can serve our needs with God more easily, praying for us. In some anti-anxiety spells I did for others, all have reported at least some mild successes with the results, and the saint I turned to for most was St. Dymphna, the patron saint of mental illness (the Catholic saint who is referenced in "Asylum Squad".) One friend was certain what I did worked, reporting that at first they shed cathartic tears, then later felt more resilient to online negativity.
Experimenting with magick, I realize more and more I probably just need to make an offering with tobacco, and utter the prayers, and if it is so willed, so shall it be. There are some burn out and mental health problems I have from having been ravaged by a demon for so long, so I am concentrating on moving forward now, having cleared myself of the field. I already feel mentally better, just a bit weary, my channel can still be wonky, but it is not painful information that comes through anymore... just silly, at worst, when it is not clear. I do a lot of spiritual work, and I realize that channel can mean that, if I do it all day, I can be worn out by the end of the day, my soul exhausted from strict commitment to practice. I have heard of psychics needing to limit themselves, or they feel really tired later, and I guess channeling all day takes its toll.
It would be nice to have a clear spiritual diagnosis of what exactly to tackle in prayer that requires adjustment, but I guess it's just up to me to experiment and see what works. For now, I will keep studying the saints and see what working with them can do for me.