Saturday, 23 May 2020
Psalm recitations with Mary...
Sometimes when I try something that leads to effective results, I feel an intense sensation within, almost like a temperature change, but not even that - like something wicked within me is being affected. This happened with the sweetgrass incident with Metatron - it's a slightly blissful feeling, like something very good combating something very bad. I came to realize my problem was probably still slightly there, was deceived into thinking it was not, so I had to attack it again. I recited a myriad of Psalms until I got the sense I had done enough (King James edition - prettier English), it must have lasted for an hour and a half, at least. I am now going to observe what comes of it. I followed up with prayers to St. Michael, and another sweetgrass smudge to Metatron.
This morning, when trying to read the Psalms again, I barely felt that sensation. Maybe that's all that I needed, and it's just to fade out entirely now? Sight is not clear in me, I need to wait and observe, maybe continue to experiment a little with more recitations. This has been about fighting for my life, and now it's ten times better than it ever was, so I am likely to be fine, in the end. (I think I am closer to Mary now than I was before - I prayed to St. Anne that She be invoked in me, and to consecrate myself to Her Immaculate Heart. Going through saints seems to help with invoking higher figures - for Jesus, it was St. Jude, for Mary, Her mother - St. Anne.) I have also been doing many recitations of the rosary with my special item.
Yesterday, I saw an odd sight for my part of Toronto, in the sky, above my building - some turkey vultures circling overhead. Was it a sign of something getting finished off? I feel attuned enough to recognize many signs, and this might have been what it was saying. I was moved by it enough to consider it may have meant something.