Thursday, 5 March 2020
Comic update: At the printers!
Psychic readings continue to improve - I hung out with my teacher the psychic man after the printer delivery yesterday, and read a woman, who said that everything I touched on was relating to things she was struggling with. Later, at karaoke, I randomly read a man who swore by me. So that's progress.
I can't recall how much I mentioned before, but I think the field is fading now. I had to work more with Jesus, who is clearing it out, and also with the Holy Spirit. I have to admit I was stumped on how to work with Jesus because there were a few pieces of the puzzle I had to figure out with Him - I had to confirm, utter prayers in relation to growing closer with Him, embarking on a Christian path, then things began to move ahead. Sometimes I would get so frustrated I would reach out to other gods because despite the fact I knew He was a presence in my life, I didn't get why things weren't moving forward very much for the longest time. This is a major corner I am turning, and one piece of evidence is how strong my readings are getting. Surely, if I was seriously spiritually unwell, that wouldn't be possible?
I do fear neurological sensitivity, or some odd kind of brain damage from this a bit, still. There's just something about me in some way that's weaker than I feel it should be. Slight auditory hallucinations that happen randomly (not voices, but noises, like a twig breaking, or glass shattering, or something like that), a propensity to break down and cry from weariness, a lethargy that comes over me, tension headaches I can't get rid of that happen sometimes daily... I just don't feel right. I wish they'd give me a PETscan to see what's going on in there, but psychiatry doesn't use those for diagnosis, only research. I feel sensitive and sometimes quite vulnerable. Lately, it's been hard to stay out too late without getting tired - surely this isn't just growing older... I'm only 37!
The demon did take its toll on my body, I am more lined than I used to be, I have greys coming in, I feel I have aged from this in some ways, though people still tell me I look good. I am happy to finally be at the finish line of my torment, and to have Divinity guiding me by the hand.