Monday, 3 February 2020
Playing with personae...
Persona is something that I have changed a great deal throughout my life, and I have several that I wear on and off at this point. We all do, really, and often a person's main personae can change overtime. Certainly, I have an authoritarian persona at work that is slightly more masculine (because of the kind of job I do). With friends, my persona can change slightly depending on whom I am with. I can't recall for the life of me which Myers Briggs personality type it said that I have, but it's one of the more outgoing ones, and I remember it saying that I have a chameleon-esque way of relating to others, and that I have the same personality type as Barack Obama. I'm not that obsessed with the Myers Briggs thing the way some people are, I don't care that I am a more common type, not an INFJ or whatever. Certainly, I will often shapeshift as a persona to adapt to whomever I am with, to keep the conversation interesting and comfortable. That seems intrinsic to my character, no matter what persona I am working with at a time.
Sister Penance is kind of an adorkable nerd girl sexpot persona that I play with for this blog as a clown to simultaneously make fun of religious conservatism and fetish nuns, but also to explore my spirituality in a way that is self aware so that when I inevitably backtrack again and again on some of my understandings of self and my experiences, it's at least a good laugh the reminisce over, and thus less embarrassing. She is not a bedroom persona - I've stated many times on here that I find sex stupid as hell (I'm Ace) so she's not that at all, it's more like a jester kind of role. The Saraƒin on the last blog concentrated more on Mad activism, so there was a different tone to my persona with that time than there is now.
Clothing can really bring out a persona in me, depending on what I am wearing. Half the time I dress like a witchy goth matriarch, and when that happens I present as a more dame-like character. When I dress more like Rainbow Brite (because I do have days like that) I will behave more cutesy. And of course, I have to wear a specific persona when talking to certain members of my family, depending on who they are.
Persona was a concept I played with a bit in "Asylum Squad" with the pseudo-Jungian Ajna Project, where the characters designed "Hero Personae" to wear in their sleep when battling their inner demons. Some said this reminded them a bit of the "Shin Megami Tensei" games, and I guess there are some similarities between my comic and "Persona 3", especially. Thinking back to some of the personae I played with as a younger woman and the ones I work with now - wow. Night and day. I am not the same person at all anymore, in so many ways.
I should pick my analyst's brain more about the concept of persona - we have discussed shadow to death, but not this area of Jungian psychology. Then perhaps I can present more interesting ideas on here.