Saturday, 1 February 2020
I had mentioned this on the weird post I later deleted, but I bought the new Pet Shop Boys album ("Hotspot") on my phone and it's one of the few delights I got to enjoy while I was there. Apart from one or two songs I tend to skip, this is a wonderful classic PSB sounding collection that is sure to be one of my faves, most of the songs are immediately appealing. Highlights for me are "Will o the Wisp", "Monkey Business", "Dreamland", and "Happy People". There are a couple of tracks with a strong disco vibe, others sound more 80s, and there were even some dream pop elements to the instrumentation. This is kind of like "Please" meets "Very" sometimes, a little bit. Stuart Price, the producer on this album, really helps the Boys shine. I hope they keep working with him.
I am so frustrated with my life as of late - what I wouldn't give not to be me for a while. I know everyone tends to feel that way on and off, and I try to be brave and positive, but my problems are so bizarre and misunderstood that even a coma looks appealing right about now. My life sometimes feels insulting to behold, I have learned not to expect anything positive - not to be negative in this case, but instead to be pleasantly surprised when the positive eventually does occur. I don't want to die, but I do wish sometimes I could go to the other place and stop this strange ride. It's exhausting and rather absurd what I have to live with on a daily basis. Please don't see this as some cry for help, I am just bored with the way things are right now, and I can't always be optimistic.
I have a work leave of 10 more days, then I'm back at the grind. For now, I am going to take it easy and try to get my life in order again.