Wednesday, 1 January 2020
Progress with the Goddess...
But what I only figured out yesterday, during a New Year's Eve work shift, is that my connection to the Goddess could have been stronger than it was. The spiral was a drawing I kept receiving through channel, over and over again, which I attributed to the Goddess, since it is a common association, and it kept going and going even after further spiritual work. But I guess I had to be more specific with my invocation of Her, because this symbol kept appearing as if to suggest a reminder, so last night I asked the Virgin Mary to specifically invoke the powers affiliated with the Spiral Goddess of the Divine Feminine, as opposed to just asking to invoke the Goddess, period.
Within an hour, my spirit writings increased in dialogue and quality, and a sense that a major shift was coming came over me. From what I gather, this specific power was essential to my development, and though I took shortcuts in some ways with other sources, this divinity is one that was paramount to my particular path, so I had to figure this out. Now, it seems another power evolves in me. It's interesting that for a couple of years, I kept channeling verbally "We wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year", since something changed on Christmas Day, and now this on New Year's Eve 2020. (Sometimes a clue comes through with a quote from a song, or something like that, as a premonition - I had first heard this one in 2017, but it wasn't until the month of December 2019 that this radical change would occur.)
Still new, I have to see what She opens up in me now. I should also do more research on Her and Her power. I have a book by Starhawk called "The Spiral Dance" which I should consider looking at again, maybe there's some good advice in that book. Once again, I guess I can't call myself Christian anymore... I am forging my own path based on practices from various things. My religious phase helped me for a while, now I distance myself and figure things out without it, but I will still keep in mind what worked from the practices of it.
I know I must seem all over the map sometimes, but that's the way it can be for certain seekers. I am self aware of how I have a tendency to quickly change my mind when something else presents. I know ideas will change in me time and time again, and that's fine. I don't claim to be anyone's authority, I am a student of the Spirit.