Monday, 14 October 2019
Getting cocky: Arrogance can be healthy...
After living a life, thus far, of letting assholes walk all over me, of taking abuse and being expected to smile about it as if all is fine, I have had it. I am standing up for myself more, but I am also growing a confidence that is bordering on being arrogant. I wondered a bit about this - the response I get from psychic interpretation is that this is a healthy arrogance, one that is rather necessary due to whom I have been and what I have been through, it is transitory and will lead me to my next stage as I grow in character.
It feels good to be a bit arrogant... it's not a vicious or pretentious version of it. It feels sexy and it helps me to realize my strength and accomplishments, it helps me to rebel against those structures and systems that deemed me meek or insignificant. I don't see arrogance as necessarily bad as long as there are enough other positive qualities in one's personality to support it, and if, in the end, it helps a person to cope with the strange society we live in. My analyst and I discussed this, and he agreed it's important to have a stage like this - it helps the ego to feel strong.
Something really weird now, on a separate topic: sometimes I read creepy shit from the Akashic records, and I'm spooked. I have a strange childhood memory of Dad and I taking the family canoe out on a lake when I would have been in grade school, coming across an old car that had gone off the road and crashed head first into the water. I was weirded out, so was Dad, so we turned the canoe around and went back to the shore. (I don't think he reported it, which was rather irresponsible of him.) Anyway, I wondered about that and read about it recently - apparently it was the result of something going wrong in the car, and we didn't see it but there was a cadaver, floating in the water, of a person who could not escape the vehicle. I read this and my body hairs stood on end.
Be careful what you read into with your psychic senses, sinners... you might not like what you see!
PS: Speaking of Judge Judy, BTW - I am off the hook for serving in a jury - HOORAY! :D