Saturday, 5 January 2019
I am not even entirely sure how reiki has helped me, only that often after I get it done, I feel tremendously relaxed, and certainly, I get strange physical responses to it, depending on who is giving it to me. When this one woman does it, I convulse, channel, and go into strange postures, especially when she works on the heart centre, and to a lesser extent, the upper centres. (The heart centre is of course where the demon has resided, all this time.) Because of these responses, I believe energies are shifted around, and some effects must be taking place.
Many are skeptical of reiki, because it looks like absolutely nothing is going on, but I can tell you - I feel intense reactions if someone properly attuned is performing it on me. It's pretty dramatic to watch me receive it, really.
I have been doing some work with the Holy Spirit, I also recently prayed that the Spirit within connect to the Spirit above. Interesting Sacred Heart messages... a message from Christ was "I gift you my heart" after I smudged again with sweetgrass. I am also trying to work with the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Maybe I really am meant to be a Catholic after all, but a liberal minded one. As much as patriarchal structures and church politics put me off, I keep going back to the cathedral. I want to take it in and just be among the icons, I can sit in there for hours. I prayed the rosary a few times again, after having not done so for a while. While most spiritual people seek to find God, or to know what He wants of them, I regularly have conversations with Him through channel, and laugh with Him. The channel seems to gradually be clearing more with time, as I attune. I don't care how crazy that sounds to a skeptic, there's a deep sort of knowing I experience that is beyond the mind's understanding, and successes I can see with prayer, that demonstrate how real this relationship with God is.
One time, I witnessed a man who appeared dressed in biblical era garb, walking along the street, while driving in a car with family. I pointed him out... no one else noticed him. Odd.
Skeptics may feel sad if they think I'm ill because of what I describe, I feel sad that they can't know the bliss I have felt.